Can One Live Without Passion?

It's really hard to live under pressure, without any passion.

I don't like my new life downstairs, and don't think I can spend enough time for the advanced organic course.... I want to do some interesting reading so bad after work but end up at dying in bed at 6 in the evening.

Changing the place/topics doesn't help for doing the same thing I'd never really enjoyed in my bachelor project(>10 months).

I feel so isolated, bored, tired, don't know why I am doing this (not the technical part, but the whole thing). Doing the lunch w/ them only makes me unhappier and more isolated.

Will answer and talk about it to R only after a month. should try to be alive.